New year

Two-thousand-and-eight was crazy. There were so many firsts, I lost my grandma, went away to college, experienced falling in (and out of) love,. I wonder what next year will bring. 

Life feels so strange right now, I have had such rhythm and familiarity in the past year and recently everything feels chaotic and scary. My resolution is to feel safe on my own and  be independent. Every time I try, I  feel even more vulnerable.

I miss feeling safe.